a new chapter in an old book... some things never change

it looks like livejournal may have come back a little bit while i was gone. it looks like i have a lot to change here. while i seem to be in the same place i have always been, the adventure between then and now has been amazing and should have been documented. but what was it that happened? oh yeah, facebook. with its one to four sentance statuses that tell everyone in your life the condensed version of whats going on? my creative writing suffers because i no longer write about my real life like it was a story, but more just a phrase. i may not fill in the gaps here, now, but may reference them later. i'm not done writing the story of my life. i always wish i had someone to tell all of my thoughts to. i feel like, now that i have so many friends, if i feel something and dont have anyone to say it to that i should keep it to myself. anyone who has ever read this journal would know that would make me crazy. i remember when gary decided i was airing my personal laundry too much on this site and how lonely i felt not being able to write out my thoughts for public viewing. he made the point that its silly and i know that it is, but if i can open myself, i can be free. if the truth is always able to be found, i have no reason to lie. if i can say irrational things to myself, i am less likely to make irrational decisions. my life is an adventure and i would like to get back to documenting it.